爱的第二旅程

看题目就知道洁欣再次踏上恋爱的路。先不说这个，最近遇到不开心的事，其实到现在心情还是没有完全平复回。所以选择看戏来麻痹自己。虽然说事情已经过了一年多了，说真的，也该放下。哪知，托alan的‘福’ 真搞不懂thomas这个人到底要怎样。明明不小了，该成熟，还闹那么多不愉快的事出来。这边承认elaine是他的女朋友，哪里跑去和alan说是她缠着他。问题时还把我拖下水。气死我了。幸好我单独约alan出来谈。告诉他我的想法，看来他承认我经过那件事后的确改变了很多，成熟了吧~不会把爱情看得太重~独立了~会想了~不会幼稚。我说的，哪里跌倒就哪里站起来，坚强的面对自己的问题。朋友只会在一旁扶持你，可是没有义务替你收拾烂摊子。自己的事自己来解决。thomas，虽然我们到头来是没有见到面，不过我真心希望过了这次alan给你的劝告，好好的反省，不要再重复这样的错误了。加油。

嗯。。至于恋爱吧~说出来一定吓屎大家。我的第二个恋爱对象不是4.0的wallance~也不体贴的靖豪。而是大坏虫小兢。不过无可否认，我依然对伟彬有留恋~现在和小兢的恋爱情节几乎和伟彬一样。有时冷不防把他当成伟彬。对不起，小兢，给我多些时间~可是我敢确定的是我会对你越来越有感觉。你是小兢不是伟彬。我选择的是小兢。我们是地下情，没有人知道。我们之间没有约束，有的是自由~他不干涉我做任何事~当然我也不会阻止他，不过坏习惯是一定要逼他改过的。希望这次的恋情不会令到大家感到疲惫。再来，我就要去intern了。第二次的远距离，洁欣我是否能度过？我答能！一定能够！加油！！你有你的梦想，尽管张开的翅膀飞吧~我支持你~我也会完成我的梦想~我们还有我们的梦想。希望可以度过这次的障碍。

爱嘛~是需要互相沟通和坦白@~
你啊！不要时常说没有东西。说罢了啦~

我希望有一个简单单纯的爱情~过着平安的每一天@~

不要忘记你给我这个的承诺啊~ :P

Jessie

10.30pm

27.8.2013

人生是什么？

回味是我們心中的一抹風景

銘記我們生命裡那些感人的一瞬

使得我們擁有前行的勇氣

當一個人...常常生活煩燥...

那麼煩燥...將會變成一種習慣...

如果您每天...用心體會生活小小的美好....

那美好生活...當然也會變成您的習慣...

人生本來就是一場即興演出...

每段旅程來到的時刻...都是我們的舞台...

你得要當好你的男女主角...

Jessie

15.8.2013

10.05pm

JULY and HEAD of AUGUST

Today got mood to update my Blog~
JULY was big month for me~got some memorable activities or events~here will upload many many photos and captions~

in 13&14 july is FAMINE 30...a very meaningful event~it is the first time i become a facilitator~i have very nice and funny group members~the most important is we have teamwork~feel happy and lucky~

famine night~

preparation night~i love the blue balloon so much <3~

take photo with this ka lao><

hui hui~another faci~nice to meet you^^

individual photos~i'm faci for famine 30~hahaXD

my good friends + course mates~friendship forever~

stadium~you can see林宇中~范范~8度空间的明星~宇田~and many stars~

my group members~so active neh~

take photo after reached campus~blur blur look~

before the hour we get hungry~

end of famine 30 lah~a very good experience for me..if got chance and i have the financial ability, i would like to support children from other poor country~1 month RM65.

the next is my lovely sister birthday~although i not beside her but my heart always be with her~hahaXD

our family photos~happiness forever~

after that is the most challenge night for me~Waltz with LOVE <3

those few days really tired, upset, down, happy,excited because my partner is wallance==a bad guy...finally i successfully know how  to dance le~geng leh~before the day of WWL, we still practice in basketball court with other friends~we really put effort on it de leh~

however..

during that night,he become a gentlemen, treat me very good and nice..hmm...just like my "boyfriend" 

he help me to bring the bag whole night. when i say my legs is pain, he go and take a chair for me. when i say i'm thirsty, he bring me go and take the orange juice for me. he even fetch me go out and take away mcd...he let's me hang his hand for the whole night and take pictures with our friends. i'm so happy because i felt i didn't xia shui him :P if his behaviour keep like this, i think i will like him de...unfortunately==this is impossible...haha~~ we took many pictures.. many people think we are couple but we are not. we are good friend forever. whatever, this night is my first prom night in university life...not bad~

see...haha~happy~and happy~

hmm....okok loh~

this two leng lui~ru and yi~

future UTAR singer~XDhaha~

hmm...i think i need keep fit leTT

before the prom night~

again~my partner...

i like this photo so much~搞怪呀~

besides RCM, we still act like this in WWL~

nope...we are not couple~

lovely said i'm look beauty in this photos....no smiling@@...

my princess~~wah~prettyyyy~~

i just be a 灰姑娘a night~haha~enough lah~

well~~just a patternXD~

jocelyn~another pretty~

<3 friendship forever~

two high gentlemen and two short ladies~

see~ken gor more suit me wat~hahaXD

cool lady and i know itXD

pattern king and queen in WWL@~

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finally, wake up from that day~ end of prom night~

hmm....you know???3.8.2013 is a special day for me and you~~~hehehe~~keep it as secret ya@ 

~J XIN~

and another terrible accident happened when i'm in hometown...the first time!!!!!car accident...oh my god sake>< lickily all people get a light injured except my dear jimmy...fell sorry to him...i hope he can get well as fast as possible...and i fell sorry to mummy, sister, yen ni and fuhan which they get shocked and injured...no next time i drive to chui chak!!! haih.....feel disappointed to myself...so bad...driving 

skill....sad....

want final le...go ahead..study..study and study!!!!! gambateh!!! i need to up my CGPA!!!! ADD OIL~

my new key chain~if is blue color i will love it more~

Jessie

13.8.2013

5.18pm

GUILTY & UNHAPPY

i saw this meaningful quotations ~

走到生命的哪一个阶段，

都该喜欢那一段时光，

完成那一阶段该完成的职责，

顺生而行，

不沉迷过去，

不狂热地期待着未来，

生命这样就好。

不管正经历着怎样的挣扎与挑战，

或许我们都只有一个选择：

虽然痛苦，

却依然要快乐，

并相信未来。

朋友，

我只在乎质量，

不在乎数量，

交的是心！

i admit that i doubt about our relationship...i scare to get closer with you...i don't know what the topic that i want share with you..even is i don't dare to look into your eyes.

 i know this is my problem...i feel guilty and sorry to you...

i think is that good for me to know some facts about you? 

i believe all the people that i know...i learn the lesson before...if you break my "every one that i know is good person" perception... you have a high possibility get into in my blacklist... 

actually i really got a bit anger with you why you say something wrong about @@ to me and others...did you know that is not fair to @@...

you are spoiling your image and trust right now...

can you imagine that is a day a person disclose or expose your thing to the public? 

feel trouble right now!!!!!!

Jessie

2.29am

19.7.2013

I'm lost

haiz... i don't know what is the main purpose for me to busy like hell in these few days. because of assignment??...ya..it is the one..after last sem...i just realize that actually i don't like press conference, i don't like write news release, i don't like interact or communicate with media...i don't like PR course..

i'm made a promise to myself which i will put effort on this course...i said that...自己选的路跪着也要走完。but now...I'm not compare myself with other,but it really very feel disappointed to myself@...

I don't have talent in creative thinking.
I don't have talent in designing.
I'm not good in english.
I'm not good in communication skills.
I'm not intelligent like wallance.
I'm not good in leadership skills.
I'm not pretty...
I have many bad behaviour...
I'm very easy influence by people...
jie xin.you are useless!!!!
you are idiot!!

what i suppose to do to improve myself?
join more events...listen and speak more english...i just will doubt is that really work??what i need to do to improve myself, to make me more better?

if you ask me what i want now..i will answer you..i really don't know what i want...
i really go to great trouble...i hate myself now...

i know my family members put their expectation on me..they hope me can successfully graduate from UTAR and can become a professional in my career.i hope so...i really do..

"jie xin, who are you?where are you now?"
I'm don't know...I'm lost...and I feel stress and tired...

I know...when a person become negative thinking, whatever she think must be in negative way...

who can change my mind?? who can motivate me??...

i just want i can graduate and work hard@... i want my dear parents retired and they can go for trip happily and enjoy their life~

i saw you in fb today, you look great~wish you happy everyday@~and...suddenly miss you a few minutes...hahaXD

我是一根草，随风飘。但我生命力强。。。

Jessie

1.51am

12.7.2013

All Things@

First thing ~feel disappointed, sad and down because I failed again to become RCM committee. i always think why Mr.k don't give a me chance...what is the problem make him don't choose me as committee. but, is okay for me now...other thing is feel hurt a bit lah, that nan ren lah>< why he felt pai seh told me about the committees list out already. haiz...don't know what he think in his mind@@ 

as what ah reisz said, you lost something but you must gain something back. so i decided go KL with my reisz to work as part time during sem break~i think this is a good chance for me to learn how to survive in strange area and how to earn money. expect this sem break. 

Second thing is I love my life now <3...do what i want to do. although busy with the shit assignments, feel happy and full everyday~the one thing that i confused is i want money...i want work...so all the best to me ba~

Third thing is yenni pak tou le loh...the time we stick together less and less. hehe...i don't eat dinner with them also :p because i want keep fit>< just feel a bit pity with lovely ba...yenni not accompany her so much...what i heard from her, yenni change her attitude ==quite weird and curiosity how about her now...haha~anyway~wish her and fuhan all the best and happiness forever <3~ 

last thing...yeah!!!!rock with the WWL~ feel sorry to matthew TT...i go with wallance,quite weird...but no partner le lah~cin cai lah~i want wear cantik cantik dress~make up baik baik~hahaXD

回头看回之前走来的路，并非顺利如意的。

生活上跌倒了就要勇敢的站起来。

碰了钉子也要敢敢拔掉。

战胜自己的恐惧。

一路走一路学习一直进步自己。

不要在意别人的眼光。

you know my name, but you don't know my story。

don't care other say about you. 

不要把别人的眼光放在自己的身上。

you alive because of yourself not because others~

自己选的路，跪着也要把路走完。

我有我的家人在背后支持着我~

22-23.6.2013

真幸运能参加这次的penang之旅@~第一次和同队在penang到处找跑到处找图画来拍照。壁画真的好漂亮~~
第一次在沙滩上玩interaction games。最喜欢沙滩大海了^.^
第一次在escape theme park玩到傻。突然觉得自己好有勇气@@
真的是玩到疯拍到乱睡到猪。我还会再回去的。非常谢谢你们这两天的款待~开心开心开心^.^~

可惜就是没有在沙滩拍照TT不过会回去的~哈哈XD

下次我还要再去~真的很好玩！！！！给这个旅行100分~

22&23.6.2013 ROCK!!!1st day penang trip~syoknya~~

兴奋中~没后悔参加这个旅行！真的很开心^^~

走着penang街~找壁画拍照~好像running man@~
好玩~第一次这样的interaction games~

我的对友们~大家都很热情^^~
这个ah fei哈哈~有他在~整个对就是热闹~

全队照~刺激的一天~虽然很热~可是开心到一个点！！

第二天~escape theme park~我们来啦XD

呵呵~要开始闯关咯~

我喝了很多hundred plus~补充体力~还有很多游戏等着我~

YK的女朋友~不错的哟~能认识她真好~

我的faci~人也好~超级friendly@~

学习滚球@@难啊><

好大粒的一个电灯泡><我啦。。。noob==

start our journey^^

27.6.13生命不可重来@重来~好好看的一部话剧~

对不起。可能不能再和你们以joinRCM了。。。
没有了我在你们也可以很开心的~

Jessie

12.02am

4.7.2013